Changes

I quit dating!  There was one more guy I had been talking to and we met and that was fine but I'm done.  I browse match just to keep the account active but I have no interest in starting up conversations with anyone from my end.  This is the first Valentines Day where I truely didn't feel anything or even care about the day.  Rather refreshing not being sad and depressed that I'm single.  I've been really busy with work, gym, church and other events that keeps my days fairly occupied.  Any free time I get I just want to be at home with myself relaxing.  Still a large amount of house projects that need my attention on top of just wanting to veg watching TV.  Working on my motivation there lol.  But I've realize I enjoy being home alone doing my own thing.  I'm getting to the point now where I don't even want people to text or call me and interrupt whatever I'm doing.  I'd say I'm being antisocial but not so.  I'm social all day at work, spend an hour each day with my best friend working out, talking and laughing then combine that with time over at the parents, church stuff and other friends my time is well spent.  Beyond that I just want to be alone.  I think for the first time I truely am enjoying being single and the perks that come with that.  When you have spent a lifetime wishing and hoping for a guy in your life and when you date its 100% all the time together I realize I've missed the good parts.  I've always enjoyed my alone time but now I finally want it to stay that way.  Of course life changes constantly so I'll go with the flow but this is a first I really like being single and not bothered with dating, boys and everything that goes with it.  Clear mind and room to breathe.  Apparently with age comes being wiser and I like it.  Emotions are not in the way nagging with loneliness, in fact being lonely is nonexistant.  I feel like I'm into that next chapter now.  Settled in the house and getting a grasp on life and my future and so far is looking bright:)