As we get closer to week 2 of me and Kyle all is still wonderful. We finally had a day where we didn't get to see each other, not my favorite. Trying to get back into my own routines even though I feel like I never have a enough time to get everything done. At least last night I got a few hours to myself to try and unwind. I am so sleep deprived lately I'm worried it's going to become a problem because me without sleep is a scary thing. I get very in my head, over analyze, and can ruin things just by not thinking clearly. I already feel I'm not as much myself because I'm tired and apparently have allergies which has had some side effects to how I feel too. I'm hoping this weekend can help get me back on track.
I'm happy to report that Kyle and I still feel like the luckiest people and completely grateful and loving of what we have in each other. He had plans for weekend which I was going to use to get some errands done and instead he cancelled everything in order to spend all his time with me. I had a slight setback when we became Facebook friends and saw how fun, cute, social, active and popular he was. Had a moment of he is better than me and how do I deserve him. An intense workout, time alone and seeing him put all that fear to rest. It's hard to change worries and fear that have always been confirmed when dating. I always want things to work out with the person I'm with but then somehow doubt, lies and whatever end a relationship. Kyle is definitely different and I hope that it continues to be that way and last a lifetime. He is the most wonderful man I've ever met. Funny, kind, tender, loving and sees me for the person I am in the best way, I am so lucky!
I look forward to the adventures we can have together, the future is bright!
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